Went shopping today with my Mum and Rach (cousin) for some last mintue holiday stuff cause i got paid today. When i went to the bank though, i think they have made a mistake with ym payent because for the 44.5 hours I've worked this month i got paid £90 something, but £20 was deducted for emergency tax. But i should've got £170 something, so there's £79 missing. But i think it might be to do with the cut off date and that extra £79 will go on next months wage, but im going to ring Kayleigh in the morning to check it out cause at the end of the day, its my money that I worked for so i have a right to know. I was getting all stressy in town though cause i just wanted the money to be right and stuff, its kinda sad but it was my first wage and i was just a bit peeved it wasnt explained to me properly how i would get paid. I don't know if this is making any sense but yeah. So i withdrew £30 just incase, i didn't think id spend it all, but i sent £25 on like..nothingness. I got a top up and 2 magazines - that was £14.50 altogether then i got some stuff from boots, an FCUK body scrub for £1 in the sale, a moisturiser about £4 some hair grips jut over a pound, some hairspray and a hair spritz to pretect my hair from sun damage etc and that was all just over £10. I honestly didn't think i'd spend it all. But i guess its not a lot when you look at it.

My mum was being a complete and utter arse today, we were outside this cafe and it was absolutley pissng it down and we only had one umbrella to share cause i got mad a few weeks ago and launched mine cause it kept blowing indisde out, anyway she kept poking me in the head with it cause she was more interested in her fucking cigarette. So i was like ''Mummm!'' and she just went mad shotuing at stuff kept saying she was ''Fucking going home!'' Shes such a drama queen sometimes.

I asked Ash if he wanted to meet up for an hour today after he finished work (hes a plumber :] ) but he couldn't cause he had an audition for a band, I've forgotten the name, so anyway i will see him when i get back cause im going out for his birthday with him and some friends and were supposed to be going on a little date too. So :)
And his fucking ex! What a silly bitch. I text him last night and she was there and she text me off his phone while he was at the loo saying something like Hi idiot, stop texting me its annoying, im just with laura. x So i thought it was him, but he told me what happened, and it was her, how fucking sad is that? She finished with him and is seeing someone else so why would she be jealous of him texting another girl? I still don't have a clue why she was round there, she just turns up at his house and him being the softie that he is, lets her in. I wouldn't she treat him like shit, and he always used to tell me the stuff she did. Fucking twat faced bitch ! Anwyays cant wait to meet up with him again! hes so lovely :]

Okay so another pretty pointless blog about nothingness but oh well :]
HOLIDAY TOMORROW!


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And fucking Jordan left me this stupid comment on bebo about how i've blocked him on msn and if i go to 6th form, if i actually turn up. hes such a dick head. So i sent him a belter of a reply. Bastard.
Cant wait, I've missed Amy so much while she's been at summer school.

I haven't posted in a while, a lot has happened since my last entry.
Jordan and I broke up. We both thought it was for the best. But we don't speak now. I'll have to face him at 6th Form but i'll be there to get my A Levels for uni so i don't care really.
Me and Ash have started getting a bit hmm flirty lately.! He's so lovely, takeing me out when i get back from holiday. We went out once before but nothing realyl happened after that.. =\


Been packing today for holiday, i go on Saturday to sunny Majorca! I cant wait, Amys coming so its gonna be great. I'd nearly finishedthe packing when my mum came in to help me get the shoes in, and took EVRYTHING out! I was like wtf? But everythign fits in better now. Its so annoying that all the liquid stuff has to go in your suitcase cause i dont want my make-up to get ruined from being thrown about, i've watched the people who load the suitcases and they just throw them on!

I have to wait till friday to get the rest of the stuff i need, face wipes, moisturiser etc cause i dont get paid until then, which is a bit of a farse but ill have to deal with it i guess!

Tia has been so naughty today and yeaturday. Last night she came in from outside and crapped on the floor. How wierd? I mean shes been house trained for like 8 months or something! And then today she dug a hole in the garden. She got told off both times by my mum and i always feel really sorry for her. Poor thing haha.

I am so drained.
Jordan may as well just fuck off. Everytime we speak he upsets me, he decided to appologise to me, just as he did that he fucking upset me again, he doesn't even realise he does it, then he has stupid shit on his MSN name, looking as though it's all my fault. What a dick.

I babysat last night for Jake, Gracie and Bobby, my cousins. Gracie makes me laugh so much, she's so bloody clumsy, this morning she fell off the sofa twice and nearly hit Bobby on the head with a scooter. Shes mad. Bobby is 7 months by the way. After the incident she had to put it away. It's been a pretty boring day, i've been asleep most of the day, im so lazy. haha.

Work yesturday was fun, i didn't think i'd be treat like part of the team on my first day but i really was! I didn't have to do much either, just on the till most of the day. I was a bit nervous about it but i did fine. Except this one lady gave me a £20 note and i typed that she'd given me 20,000 and i couldn't delete it haha. All in all it was good. And im going to work sundays as well. :)

I went to two interviews yesturday, and got BOTH jobs! Im so glad.
One job is at a shop in town, thats on a weekend and its £5.05 an hour, which im happy about, i thought it would be about £3. I start tomorrow!
And the other is a cleaning job at a school, thats monday - friday but it's ony 3 hours a day. Im doing that one until i start college and them im going to leave. Thats £5.81 an hour which is like really good, well IMO =] I start on monday 4-7pm and then in the summer holidays its 9am-12.

So things haven't really improved with me and Jordan. I haven't seen him since last tuesday thats like 10 days. He knew i had the interviews yesturday and didn't even bother to call me to see how they went, he decided to ask me this morning on MSN. How nice?

I feel a bit guilty atm cause i've been talking a lot to an ex, Terry. i miss him so much. i think i still love him. <3 Everything is allover the place, Terry has a girlfriend but i know he stil likes me, not long ago when he broke up with her for a while he asked me to get back together, but i wasn't sure. Now i wish i had of given him another chance. Maybe things will just turn out good in the end.

Today hasn't been as boring as i thought, i got up about 10am and cleaned around the house.
After that i thought i'd do a few sit ups and Tia (my doggie) decided she would stand on me. Great lol.
Just waiting for Katy to get back from the hairdressers cause its prom tonight, so i said i'd do her make-up. Im not going.



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For fuck sake, Jordan was meant to ask my dance teacher on Wednesday when the audition for 6th form is, he did but now he says he forgot. How fucking hard is it to remeber ONE day? He says ''Frankly, i've slept since then.'' and??? how does that make you forget the name of a friggin' day? If i miss this i wont get a place. He gave me this stupid fucking number to call which is her business number, and as if i can ring it? I'll feel such a titwank. (omg my swearing is rediculous.) I asked him to since he forgot about it but No he wont. What kind of boyfriend do i have?

/rant

Today was so shit. Jordan and I had a fight last night and I seriously feel like hes not bothered about me.I said if you really wanna sort things out, you'll find time to talk to me tomorrow at school. And did he?



Like fuck he did.




We walked to school together and I was fine with him cause i thought well he won't wnat to talk about it infront of all our friends, so yeah i was okay with him. Then after the exam we had like an 45 minute ish break, so i thought yeah he'll come sit and talk. Did he?


Did he fuck


He sat with his dickhead friends, he came over and asked how my exam went and he knew from how i was that i wasn't happy with him, then he just went outside. We didnt speak all the way home and then he left early to prick Rianna up frm school. When i got home i told my mum to say i wasn't there if he rang, which i knew he would. It's like he can't talk face to face or something. So anyway he rang twice and the second time i spoke to him and we kind of sorted things out. Whenever we argue though, he always say 'I don't know' to everything, it's so annoying. So today i just told him everything that upsets me. How he never compliments me on anything i just get put down all the time by him, and how he seems more interested in the ther people at school, i mean seriously i sould like a fucking child but he has nothing to do with me at school, he always seems to be around other girls. Which doesn't bother me, cause i trust him, its the lack of attention that gets to me.

Anyway i think everything is okay now, we both agreed that with me its the stress and pressure to do well in my exams, which is kinda making things hard for us at the moment.



Lovely 2 and a half English Literature exam. Great. I swear the questions were so damn hard. Soemthing like "Explain why Inspector Goole was important to the play as a whole" I was like wtf?! Ha but i rambled on for 4 pages so. And anyway i thought i did shitty in my English Language paper but i got an A so my judgement is pretty bad.

God, i've only really taken one exam so far but the stress seems to be getting the better of me. It's English Literature tomorrow, which is a two and a half hour exam. Great.

I haven't done as much work and revision for it as i should but i'm feeling pretty confident that i'll pass. I got an A in my Language exam, and i've had a lot of time to practise the questions and get the technique right, so i'm just hoping that certain questions come up. :)

It's kinda causing problems between me and Jordan as well. It's like i'm so irratable latealy that we argue over nothing, i mean its not all my fault but i seem to get more annoyed at things he does that what i did do before, so i'm blaming it on the exams. i just hope that's the cause because i love him to bits, and i don't want to ruin what we have. But things could be better between us.

Anyway i'd better go, probably to do some work, but i can't seem to drag myself away from the laptop.